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you know as I introduce this and the
story of you know my experiences I was
thinking that this this this segment
could kind of lay the foundation for
like why all this happened for me
um and part of that is is is the soul
Mission so what what did I you know come
into experience I probably talked about
that on other videos maybe people are
getting tired of me talking about that
but uh it's so much of uh it is really
laying the framework of why so many
different Black Ops got a hold of me and
why I ended up you know in Montauk and
in Dulce and in the 20 and back and so
on and so forth why was all that going
on right
um I feel like I I came in to bring
light into dark places but I had to do
that via
um going in firsthand to learn about
them and kind of decipher the code if
that makes sense
um so I mean eventually this year will
lead me into my family there's a lot to
say about that but I think the the I
really really signed up for this and to
to be part of undoing the Empire so to
speak and that's really important like
to lead off from there and
um
I wanted to just say too about the the
you know my my avatar let's say on the
the galactic Confederation ship um I
don't talk about this aspect of my story
very much
um you know back in the early
programming uh days it and navy base
north of Chicago Great Lakes Naval
Station I was programmed to not remember
them to not talk about that relationship
and to to
um just forget forget that part of my
inheritance but with a an andromedan
aspect on that ship which is concurrent
with his lifetime
um
you know we had a mission to learn more
about the galactic slave trade and uh
you know I was one of the volunteers
let's say to learn more about that and
that was heavily you know what was
happening on the moon and also um on
Planet X with the Draco where I was
owned later in my my time in the SSP
that was all about the slave trade so I
was kind of gathering Intel as a as an
agent from what I call the light
Alliance or
um formerly more formally the galactic
Confederation
and I have a I have a mate from that
ship that I from person that I very
rarely talk about
um so interestingly you know I'm I'm so
able to talk about all the dark things
and not very well versed in speaking
about that aspect of my story
um
so hopefully that gets easier as time
goes on and
um
I guess we could go into my father I
have a couple other things I wanted to
talk about like memory recall and um why
I went public why I decided to become
published my story sure sure yeah yeah
so that I I feel that's important
because you might say well why you know
I did wonder you know at first you know
would I ever talk about this publicly
and it's not what I really had in mind
um but I as as more meant more memory
was coming up for me
um I realized that I was going to be
complicit with the agenda if I didn't
speak or that's how the equation sort of
seems to be leveling out for me like I
got to a point back in 2020 where I felt
like I'm gonna die if I don't say
something about all that I recalled
um
and and watching children be abused and
killed I mean you can't really not not
say something about that right if I've
if I've survived that then it's part of
my do and duty to to
bring that to light so that was that's a
big deal and and and maybe an
encouragement to other people who who
have been in the programs who are
wondering if they have anything to offer
I never thought that I would be
influencing anybody's life with this
story but but I get mail all the time
that indicates that people are inspired
so I think maybe we're helping each
other to bring tooth truth out into the
open here on this planet
um
and I would say too that this his story
isn't just about
um
it's not just about me you know I I
have a mother from a past life mother
and father from the the tribe of the
crow people a past life that I lived
with them in the 1850s they were both
killed by smallpox but in 2018 they came
into
um
start supporting me again
um because it has a much disruption in
my natal family in this life but where
I'm going with this his mother has
always said you know what what befalls
one member of the tribe belongs to all
of us and so you're suffering and my
suffering really in the end or not
separate
um another that's a beautiful teaching I
feel and so maybe if you haven't been
through the programs this is still an
offering that maybe inspires people in
their ordinary lives to um
who like a classic overcoming of
adversaries or adversity kind of story
and and I've you know I worried about
losing friends losing business losing
clients and things
um but I've really only gained I mean
I've lost people you know you can't come
out and talk publicly about ET abduction
and like retain all your friendships you
know the normal people are gonna leave
and they did
so so
um just to share that it's been it's
been well worth the Journey of coming
out in public even though the first
video I ever recorded I I for sure
thought somebody was going to come and
kill me you know the programming was
that strong
um I survived I haven't had too much
interference with within the time that I
um been open about this which is the
last I guess almost three years now
so that's a that's a win I feel all
around
um and then just to say
um
a little bit about memory recall as well
is just adding all these things because
I feel like they can help people who are
wondering you know I've got all this
weird space memory stuff and I don't you
know what the hell is this and how do I
deepen my my awareness of what happened
to me how do I get more memories back so
for me
um there's there's a few pieces to that
story and
um
the main one was was I don't recommend
this but I was I was I had a very bad
head injury in 2012. I was hit by a car
in on a I was on a training ride on my
road bike and
um Northern New Mexico not too far from
the Dulce base in fact which is really
ironic uh more than ironic highly
synchronistic and after that time I mean
I was pretty I was kind of a mess after
that and and it was it was that impact
to my head which started to Rattle
things loose in in some kind of
compartment of my subconscious and
things started really falling apart and
I had very bad PTSD it was not from
being hit by the car it was everything
else that was starting to
dislodge like I feel like at that moment
I got a data packet you know with
everything in it that I had forgotten
however I couldn't really
um
unwind or or decode the the data packet
for a number of years but there there's
where it began and and and two my life
became such a mess and so unmanageable
that I started a spiritual path of
meditation which stands True to this day
you know I have a morning and evening
meditation practice and
it's during those times of Stillness
that
um
you know if you've been in deep
meditation just working with your breath
and and noticing what's going on within
you and abiding in that space
boy the subconscious really begins to
divulge its contents that's where we
start to get information and I never
started meditation thinking I'm going to
get Memories Back I didn't know what I
was doing I didn't know how much memory
I had that was going was going to reveal
itself I had no idea but that's that's
been a linchpin on the journey for
um revealing the truth of my life that
have been so you know
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sometimes asked me about
um have I done like hypnotic regression
and I've not had a good time with that I
I tried to do that
um I'm not saying it doesn't work but
for me because I had hypnosis used on me
in the past in ways that were
um very dark you know as a programming
method
um I it's like I subconsciously again
I'm holding on even though I'm not
wanting to consciously but I I don't I
won't submit very well to that so
um
yeah and then of course my father died
in 2020 and he was a big uh a big player
in in what had gone on for me so
um
before one more thing before I talk
about Dad
I um you know what are they looking for
you maybe you know your listeners know
about this but just to say what are you
know
to kind of underscore why perhaps I was
taken or why what are they looking for
when they're vetting kids or people
adults for the programs
um they want people with liability and
they want people from certain it can be
certain Bloodlines and kids who
dissociate easily kids who are coming
from a traumatized background are like
icing on a cake for the dark controllers
absolutely 100
um and and two if you of course you know
solubility and starseed kind of go hand
in hand you know we come with higher
genetics and you know a kind of mission
and they want us
um that's probably pretty well known in
your audience but also if you have a
parent that happened to work in the
military-industrial complex or the Deep
State
um of course that's that's going to be
uh
boy it becomes a hot ticket item you
know and for me that was absolutely the
case so let's jump into my dad
um
sometimes I don't know where to begin
with him he he was a he was a mystery
man you know throughout my life he was
absolutely a
um you know who was that masked man he
was an aeronautical engineer he worked
with the Army before I was born he had
just a secret clearance in the Army and
after he got out of the army
um
he was vetted by a company called
Lockheed Martin
um and that's one of the biggest
military contractors in the world it's
all defense contractors and you know
they've had they've had some stake in
Mars you know
um but he began to work in the the area
of um top secret when I was about four
and I have the documentation that backs
that up with his um his all his
clearance applications but he worked in
cryptography and steganography and
satellite Communications radar I have
some evidence that he was working with
psychotronic technology
um he was in research and development
right and he they would give him a
budget and he you know go go create this
and he would he said on his deathbed he
said you know they got a lot of patents
out of me
um he was unschooled like a self-made
person
um I followed in his uh footsteps they
trained him they trained him to be all
they needed him to be and he was very
much heavily handled by by the Deep
State I would say
um
so there's a lot he died in 2020 I
mentioned that
um and during the year year and a half
leading up to his death I was starting
to get a lot of memory back and it's
because he was responsible through his
work you know they got to me
um
so much of the space stuff started
coming up in overwhelming ways that I
didn't think I could quite handle um
when he was about to die in March of
2020
that was an extraordinary time for me
but but it's it's sure it's borne out
you know it's shown itself to be true
that when when somebody who is pivotal
in all of this for me comes into passing
you know transiting from this Earthly
body I get a lot of memory back and so
it was with his journey out
um he was a you know I would call him a
Zeta starseed from originally from Zeta
reticuli and he was heavily involved
with the Orion Grays
um
there's a long story with that but but
not you know necessarily good way when I
say he was handled he was also being
handled by the Orion group so all the
more reason that that they got their
hands on me
um back in 2020
um I had a vision in meditation that
came up several days running of
I really didn't want to see this it was
my father
guys from the Navy guys in suits and two
Grays sitting in a conference room and
they're pushing papers at my dad and
saying this is you know this is for the
betterment of humanity and he's signing
off on me and I don't know if my brother
as well my brother was also in the
programs
um
when that came through it explained a
lot of things I mean when it first came
through I just shut my eyes in my ears
and kind of like I wanted to I did what
no good channel should ever do you know
like I wanted to shut down what I was
seeing
I really didn't want to know about that
I felt so betrayed
um but it explained again why you know
why was I taken to Montauk and Dulce and
into you know the child pornography
industry with the Deep State why did all
that happen to me how was that even
possible or feasible but
um if you've got this kind of contract
going they're going to build you out and
they're going to use you they're going
to use you really hard so
um I've been in contact with my father
since he's passed on and there's a lot
of shift that's gone on for him as he's
left the body and moving
um back into uh you know an original
seed source of wisdom and light back
inside of reticular I mean I can I can
discern that which is a you know a
really beautiful
I would say a beautiful discern
Segway let's say a Segway into
something totally different than what he
lived out
um through through this reality there's
a lot to his story I mean do you have
any questions about what I've offered so
far Alex what what do you remember him
doing you said that you're taken to
rituals and places was he also present
there or he was no my father so we'll
get into that with my mom yeah let's go
into my mother okay
um Dad was never to my memory
um I don't think he even I mean and this
is how these families go like you could
have Satanic ritual going on in a family
and part of the family not knowing it's
even happening okay it's crazy so yeah
let's talk about let's talk about my mom
um her side of the family was German
through and through and through German
completely German on both sides and
um their her father was a reverend I
would call him a black magician he had a
Church's you know Christian churches as
a front but he was working in the the
Black Arts and there was rituals that I
was taken to through my mother's father
and my mother's brother that were
they're they're black I mean they're
dark they're satanic and
I will get more memory back a lot of the
memory I have is quite fragmented of
those those times because it is so
um it's so dark and it's hard when it's
your own family it's one thing to talk
about the programs and handlers and so
on that that you know are not part of
your earliest beginning per se but when
it's in your own family it's a whole
nother that's next level right
um with my mother
and all of that you know her her I say
the father her father was a black
magician well her father's father was a
you know a cemetery uh caretaker you
know what are they doing her brother had
a
this is when he was grown you know he
kind of inherited the family
um
the family deviance he had a you know
old old-timey ancient cemetery on his
private property in New Hampshire I grew
up in Nashua New Hampshire and the
defense industry is is is hot and it
still is you know 40 years 50 years
later their biggest biggest gig in town
is the the defense industry
um but just to kind of show how that has
come down through the the bloodline and
whenever my mother's brother finally
passes away he's getting close to 90. I
I'm kind of bracing for a flood of
memory there
um and and I think now after after some
years
with that knowing that that's the
reality of my life and I've had memories
from that my whole my whole entire
entire lifetime but but I've I've really
stuffed them away but I what I'm getting
at in a roundabout way here is that I I
think I'm resourced to handle it now
where I might not have been five or ten
years ago the full onslaught of what
really went down there and and her
brother became he's a Neo-Nazi he's got
a basement full of Nazi stuff and Nazi
you know swastikas all over the place
and you know that was normalized when we
would go for Easter or Christmas or
whatever holiday to their house
it was like this is this is a normal
thing and I'm just shocked by that now
when I look back at that like how could
that have been
overlooked they immigrated from Germany
originally not my mother but the family
oh the the whole family no it's just
traced back they've done a really
in-depth genealogy which I've seen
um going back into the 1700s early 1700s
there so it's all traced
um I personally don't have much interest
in it but um no my mother didn't come
from Germany but her ancestors did okay
on both sides like this these unbroken
German Bloodlines so and and let me say
the darkest part of that is that there's
an inheritance of dark reptilian uh I
would say DNA through that okay which is
a little shocking to talk about but in
the the course of my journey with this
um and kind of making peace with us and
healing from this
unbeknownst to me and unplanned by me I
was able to change the DNA with that and
it kind of has I want to say I don't
know how else to say it but it's backed
through the lineage
behind me into the past and helped heal
that um and it's become this beautiful
white lion uh dragon energy Draco dragon
energy
um that I've this reptilian energy
coming up through me that was heavily
harnessed by the programs
um
I didn't understand it but I paused to
let it occur because I knew psychically
that something something needed to
happen and I needed to not shut it out
and boy I'm glad I didn't shut it up
because it changed my life and it
changed the lineage it changed what
happened in the past and it will change
what happens in the future so you I
didn't know that was a thing like you
can change your DNA like I had to look
online like is that a real thing it's
totally a real thing
um a family that I inherited through
that is is is
magnificent like this very luminous
pastel colors that um come come with
that and this this loving Embrace that
is actually
transplanted or trans how do we say um
I don't know the right word it's it's
it's displaced that other darker energy
go ahead I feel I interrupted you do you
think that they had this reptilian
element because they like made a pact
way back with an entity or a group of
entities and then they had this genetic
modification or maybe like etheric
etheric genetic modification probably
it feels like well so
um boy that's a rich yeah this is a rich
topic you know with my um let me see if
I can stay on track with that it
definitely it it feels like it became
genetic and it's through like you said
dark entity
um when they're doing rituals there's
dark entities feeding all around and
they're they're kind of working with
Central figures that tell them what to
do and they become almost like those
entities become in bondage with the
lineage or the lineage becomes in
bondage or in servitude to those
entities over the over the generations
and it gets it seems like it just gets
stronger and stronger and
um you think they brought this over from
Germany from that time hundreds of years
ago
yes okay so and they passed it down
through generations
yes yeah okay
did your grandfather try to pass it down
to someone also
yeah my mother's brother
okay his son but I feel like he still he
was the last in the line as far as I
know like I'm still kind of trying to
figure out what what was the um
what caused the cessation I don't know
about his son my cousin I I there's some
fishy stuff there that I don't know
about and um I think I haven't wanted to
know about it because that's too close
to home like to be quite honest can you
tell like from your point of view from
your experience what other rituals for
and what other people getting from it
like the people who are doing the ritual
and what do you think are yes what do
you think uh the entities get from it oh
the entities are feeding they're feeding
on you know these days we'd call it luge
it's dark dark energy and there's so
much power transmission so if we if we
talk about the Alchemy of um sacred
geometry and the Alchemy of working
through the quantum field with with
higher beings that can be you know we
usually associate that with light work
but it can be inverted and used to align
with dark energies that are equally as
powerful however it's all in service
itself
so
um there's a there's a lot of high level
stuff going on there and it's just used
in what I would call the wrong direction
and it's it's it's feeding on death and
destruction rather than light and
rebirth right did they get any kind of
perks in the real world like power stuff
it's all energetic you know you wouldn't
look at this guy and think you know in
my grandfather's case I think so but he
you know he was a reverend but um but as
far as his his son and his
his grandson
um I don't think so it's all about
energetic and it's all like people begin
to operate in a kind of
um altered state like they're not we
talk about dissociative States like
they're not really home
um I was just going to say to clarify
about about the like the shape-shifty
aspect of this was apparent when I was a
kid when my mom was doing her thing and
she was she kind of has a split you know
a split um person inside of her in which
the part of her that's the abuser
doesn't know like her front personality
doesn't know that she has this abusive
side that is very violent and when she
would be abusing me she would I would
notice like the The Reptilian eyes and
that was as a child like why is my
mother having like Snake Eyes
um that was very apparent to me and of
course I I didn't understand the full
breath and depth of that until much
later
um and these families as you know you
know like there's this very you know we
go to church we are you know well bred
and and present well in society but look
at the stuff that's running underneath
it it's like it's a little bit shocking
but that's how it's the system is
preserved over time right
well do you think the shape shifting was
really physical or it was energetic and
you could just see the energetic overlay
it's energetic it's totally energetic
it's not a real or had more you know
ability to see beyond this Dimension
right okay okay so I could observe that
um okay yeah and that's a great question
thank you yeah so yeah yeah because
there is a lot of argument about like
people a lot of people claim that they
actually those people actually
shape-shift physically uh what I came to
sort of conclude is that there is a
there's this energetic overlay over a
person and this is by the way was told
by a reptilian being channeled he also
confirmed that and and I think David
Wilcox also said that he met an
Illuminati once and he was they're
somehow able to enhance this projection
of this entity and when you see them
even if you're not psychic I guess at
some point they can kind of enhance this
and you can see them in this reptilian
form and you feel absolutely yeah you'll
freak out and you go they're working
with such high level energy to to
accommodate all that's going on right so
right there will be a bleed through in
the viewer even if they're that viewer
is not the Observer is not is is like
firmly lodged in 3D and doesn't have any
ability like you said there's going to
be a bleed through in that moment you're
going to see right through about 100
different dimensions in that moment okay
and it was very scary yeah
so
um
boy and I wanna just a a note about that
with my grandfather I want to say too
that that and this was totally another
unexpected denouement in my story is
that he once I started kind of
unearthing and you know I gotta shovel
out and I'm digging through this
Darkness uh my grandfather had come to
me and he said I got a long number of
messages from him over time saying and
this was all around 2019 20 21.
um he was as much as saying you know I
couldn't end it in my lifetime they had
me so bad you know they had me in the
grip but you need to talk about this and
you need to stop this like you need to
be the end of the line right like this
isn't going to continue and that's
wow how unexpected just like Shifting
the DNA to have him come like one of the
Prime perpetrators right coming and
being like stop this man no that's
awesome that's really awesome
so you said that your mom was double
personality and she wasn't aware like
what was going on so there was like two
sides of her life that she wasn't aware
of
yeah so my mother was definitely a
product of that trauma in her childhood
and what do we do I mean let's talk
about dissociative Tendencies and
fragmenting the psyche that's what it
does and so my mother because she hasn't
healed that's that's gone on for her and
she doesn't remember what she was doing
to my brother and I at all
um
so uh I don't know if I mean she's never
been diagnosed with anything but but I
see this in her personality like it was
so normalized for me that I didn't you
know until the past 10 years I didn't
start really digging in to what was
actually happening like oh wow there's I
just called it like good mommy and nasty
Mommy good good mommy bad mommy that's
all I knew as a kid I don't know who I'm
gonna get right
um but I can also have compassion given
what I'm aware she's been through at
this point but what what did that mean
for my brother and I you know like my
brother let's talk about briefly my
brother
um
I know he was taken too and you know he
my brother spent his entire childhood
drawing spaceships and aliens and
reading sci-fi and
finally in uh it was this November of
2022 I got him through texting to open
up about his his nighttime he you know
we both call them night terrors but they
were abductions he describes all through
his childhood just like me and I had no
idea this was true for him he describes
being lifted up as if by an unseen hand
out the roof of the house and trying to
scream and trying to get loose and and
not being able to
that is more or less what was going on
for me being paralyzed and mute but
knowing they were coming for me and
taking me out of the house
my brother doesn't believe in aliens
anymore as he's 54 and uh you know
I'd asked him to like recently I said
can you go find any more of your like
E.T drawings I want to check him out
like I'm trying to open the conversation
there to to kind of get him back around
to this but I also recognize it's
you know with Equanimity I have to
regard his experience because it might
not be in the cards for him in this
lifetime to to go into that like maybe
it's not his job to remember I don't
know
but but just to say too I I would I
would say you know my parents were
breeders they met they both my mother
was in the Army my father was in the
army they met in the Army and they had
two kids for my lab my my father's side
was he was aligned with the Orion Grays
my mother was aligned with the
reptilians I mean is there a more
perfect situation to bring children in
for the programs I don't think so I
don't think they were conscious of it
but on another level just like myself
kind of being a volunteer let's say in
the to come in and experience all this
yeah you know they have may have had so
necessity to to play that role on their
end
yeah so it was like a perfect
vibrational combination uh I think so
yeah question uh do you think the people
he used to say a lot that they were like
preparing you for the space programs did
people that did the rituals did they
know about space stuff or they just were
working with inter-dimensional entities
in that song no no no I don't think at
all
let me um
let me go into that so it would be
important for uh you know like I said
they want kids who are fragmented and
can easily dissociate already like bam I
got you covered you know what do you do
when that's going on in your and you're
a little girl or a little boy you're
gonna leave the scene you can't leave it
physically but you're going to leave
psychologically and not splitting off
from self right so they look for that so
if you come from a family where this is
going on two you're already going to be
a kid who has no self-authority you're
going to give your power away at every
turn like for me all through this I
would just kind of dissociate even you
know the programs in SSP as well like
I wouldn't fight back it didn't matter
how horrific the abuse was I wouldn't
fight back and that is so sad to me but
that's what that's what I learned like
to be safe and to survive you just give
in and go away internally
you know
um
so we could also I suppose we could also
talk briefly about my godfather
but I'm like let's just talk about him
for a moment I mean it's kind of germane
to this story because we've got so many
family players right family actors
inside of this so Mr E I'll call him was
German he came over in the 1950s after
the war from Germany
um as a kid but he was my father's best
friend and he was
um worked side by side with you know
with my father in these black projects
with Lockheed and I was given to him as
my godfather when I was born and Mr E
was active in my life until I was six or
seven and
it was a little shocking but he was
taking me to um deep State child
pornography events where I mean I would
be filmed in highly deviant uh sexual
ways with men and it's all a it's all a
blackmail scheme like there's no better
way to Blackmail
someone in the Deep State
um in the elite factions of all this
then by having them filmed having sex
with a child so those are memories too
that are that are somewhat fragmented
they're very much there but he also is
in ill health in his latter latter years
Mr ears and
um I know that I'm also bracing for the
tidal wave of more memory of that of
that nature to come back to me as he's
getting ready to die
um
uh they are all owned I want to make
that clear that he and my father were
really owned
um by their by their own Handler so
there's this this servitude or
enslavement that kind of runs down
through the system that is worth having
a look at you know and it's not to say
they're not entirely responsible for all
of this themselves they're for their
behavior their actions and what they
allowed to
allow themselves to participate in but
but I see the long Arc of control and
darkness that is kind of operating the
whole system and it's much bigger I mean
everybody's a puppet inside of this
and I you know
we we could say like why talk about all
of this Darkness how is this pertinent
to anything but I know I've said this
before that when we when we don't talk
about it it doesn't heal
um it's a wound that festers for all of
us and it it
is there's no light brought into that it
just stays dark but in the the purpose
of me talking about this if you've ever
if anybody out there who speaks English
and has seen my bringing light to the
darkness series on my YouTube channel we
go in deep there and in every instance
of gathering uh you know talking about
this degraded information in my life and
these experiences we're always bringing
light into those places and they become
uh more and more healed they become more
and more free and they lead have led me
into sovereignty and I think too from
the messages I get from clients and
viewers that it's leading other people
into place of empowerment as well so I I
kind of Stand by my my uh belief that
it's more important to talk about it
than leave it in a dank you know bunker
and of the collective psyche do you want
to talk about cover the gray the Orion
gray stuff
yeah
um let's talk about the grades so yeah
we'll get into the the uh et's a little
bit here so
after all of that my listeners aren't
like on the floor trying to recover
themselves yet we have the Grays around
in my childhood too right so the Grays
the Orion Grays I mean most people
probably have heard of them I don't need
to probably go into much of that story
but they
um would appear when I was a kid and
sometimes with my father they would just
be standing by my bed
and the the the reason for that had to
do with normalizing
um the situation so that I would begin
to see them as family so my father's
there I love my dad oh these weird
people are there too but okay I don't
like them they feel icky but
but I guess they can be there because my
dad is there right there's so there's
this we're naturalizing the situation in
a in a very um sneaky kind of way
um and the grace to be honest I've had a
lot of visions of them
um
let's say working with me in utero which
is this is that's also difficult to talk
about like thinking about that but when
I was you know in gestation we have the
Grays coming in and
you know checking on their products in a
way right
um it was part of like a hybrid program
and
they were the first ETS that I remember
and a lot of it was that that kind of
weirdness of them just kind of hanging
out watching me seeing how I was going
to develop and taking notes right and
eventually I would start being uh
taken out like I started having night
terrors I called them night terrors you
know like I said I would always wake up
and this would happen sometimes multiple
times a week where I would wake up after
something happening and I was mute and I
was paralyzed and I was terrified and I
didn't have all that much memory other
than that somebody bad had come for me
and something bad had been done to me
um and I had you know a lot of
um
what I would say are classic signs of
being abducted nosebleeds waking up with
your clothes on funny waking up with
your head at the foot of the bed where
are the covers they're all on the floor
why you know my jewelry has gone
somewhere else or I'm just very strange
um
strange
strange things happening at night that
that now when I look back I'm like Jesus
Christ that's that's you've got
abduction written all over you I I grew
up you know went into adulthood and
didn't have any frame of reference
reference for extra extraterrestrials
right so
because of that like we're talking about
my brother now in his 50s doesn't
believe in aliens even though he spent
his whole childhood drawing them like I
wouldn't have been able to make sense of
an abduction stuff any of that because I
didn't have the cognitive frame of
reference or belief system that would
have allowed that to come come home and
come true but now quite frankly I look I
mean I look at all this and I just think
I'm so stupid how come how come I didn't
see this wow it took me so many decades
to unpack this and at that time you know
this started when I was three four even
earlier you know with them just standing
there with the greatest standing there
like I had so much cognitive impairment
and and and and
um psychological disruption in my life
and and we could say this through all
the other things that were also going on
but but
you know it's also through through the
the abductions beginning
um at age four and then starting to be
taken to the moon and so that's for the
next episode but
um
gosh I I just really have so much
compassion for people who have fragments
of this kind of stuff in their past that
they're trying to unpack and if they
feel like wow I'm not really making any
Headway and this is really hard and I
don't understand it like
I get that there's so many people who
come to see me as clients who have
little pieces and parts and it's a long
journey but I also say now
um that we're doing this together like
as you watch this video like you were
you know where something is conveying to
your subconscious mind that's going to
help you I hope that's my intention
um and I've had you know I have had help
the only reason like I was
institutionalized frankly in my I was 19
18 19 when I first you know had my first
suicide attempt I really wanted to die
and I went through some years like that
and I was institutionalized because I
could not be alone with myself and and
it was really dark like I've had very
very dark periods in my life and it's
taken me a long time to to to become
this woman and I I feel like you know
the lighter lines the galactic
Confederation my family on the ship that
Syrian light ship that polymorphous
beautiful light ship has preserved when
I was being abducted all this stuff was
happening they were preserving part of
my soul so I wouldn't completely fall
apart and so I wouldn't be undone I
wouldn't be mentally dysfunctional for
my whole life and that I could come into
this position later in life the second
half of my life right and and you know I
mentioned mother and father my parents
from that you know life of Lifetime with
the crow people
um indigenous tribe here in the U.S in
North America
they've helped me so much to heal and I
love them so much they're always with me
I feel them now she's always on my left
he's always on my right and they're some
of my strongest guys you know and I
would say too that me working through
this story like my earliest Beginnings
we have not even come close to a 20 Mac
that comes when I'm you know 80 1982
when I'm nine years old I was born in
1972 gives you an idea of how old I am
now
um I couldn't do the client work that I
do without having come through this you
know tooth and nail crawling wailing
screaming bleeding you know like really
pulling myself through this has helped
me help other people because it's
through The Crucible or on our own
experience that we are made wise
like I had to be willing to go down into
that well of suffering to learn
compassion for myself and for other
people so I think I just you know want
to leave it at that note that that I
like to say that the impossible is
possible and I hope I can leave people
with a more inspiring note you know on
that for their for their own Journeys
whatever's happening for them
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